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Une fille comme moi
Je t'aime plus que hier, moins que demain ♥
Welcome to the blog of a 17yearoldgirl, where she posts her mindless musings and ramifications.
This is extremely private;
cos this is where she dreams, sleeps and cries.
She lives. 		"We can catch buses and count our change and cross the roads and talk real sentences.
but our innocence goes awfully deep,
and our discreditable secret is that we don’t know anything at all,
and our horrid inner secret is that
we don’t care that we don’t."
reasons or excuses?
Thursday, December 29, 2005, 3:14 PM
basically i've grouped life into 3 main grps: schooling period, working period, n after-retirement period. each period last about 20 years or more each. so dis proves dat life is jus so boring!! r we jus living 4 e sake of living? or r we livin 4 a purpose? accordin 2 my mum, we should haf a aim in live in life. 4 e schooling period we should aim 2 focus on study properly so as 2 find a gd job in e future. 4 e workin period we should achieve n fite 4 higher job ranks n if we haf a family by den, work hard 2 support e family n kids. n e aim 4 after-retirement period is 2 keep our body healthy so as not 2 become a burden 4 e society n e family. i feel dat all 3 aims r pretty stupid n boring. so wad r our reasons 4 livin??

my dad saes dat we should c things in a optimistic way. cos we r livin life, it's better 2 c things in a better lite den n b happi den 2 sad n pessimistic all e way. but i feel dat being optimisitic is sorta lyk deceiving urself. if u got all these frenship prob, family probs n all dat crap, how can u still remain optimistic? how can u still face all those crap n tell urself dat it's okay? how can u sae dat dey dun mean those hurtful stuff dey said? dat ppl dun mean 2 backstab u on purpose? how can u still tolerate those things n b happi???? it's impossible unless u close ur eyes n wrap a dark veil around those sad stuff. dat means u actually cant face e reality of ur problems so u convince n deceive urself dat those stuff r okay. which, in my opinion, is wad a coward would do. i CANNOT stay optimistic cos i'm jus so damn sick of these problems. i CANNOT stay optimistic cos i'm not a coward, i'll force myself 2 bear wif e reality of my life.

mayb e 1st time u face these stuff, u'll stay optimistic. u'll persuade urself dat these horrible things will eventaully go away. u'll believe dat ur life will change after a few wks 4 e better. but 4 mi, i'm jus met wif this crap 4 2 long. once i believed dat i can change things. i can make e bad stuff go away. but no, now i no longer do cos dat is not sumthing in my capability. it's lyk loving sumthing dat u lyk a lot. mayb u love chocs a lot. but if u kip eatin n kip eatin this same brand of chocs over n over again, u'll start 2 hate it. so now, i'm jus 2 tired n sick of convincin myself of e untruths. 2 tired n sick 2 cover up n close my eyes on these problems.
it's e same wif hw n projects. i dislike them. but yet i'm forced 2 do these hw in fear of punishment from e teachers n in fear of not securing a good enuf job in e future. so i've no choice but 2 do these things dat i hate. i cant remain optimistic n sae" hey, thou i'm tired, i've learnt pretty much stuff 2day n i look 4ward 2 learning more e very nex day" cos i've done these process of learning, listening 2 teachers drone on in sch, doing hw n projects 4 abt 7 yrs. cos i've been given an "overdose" of learning, i've started 2 hate it. NO ONE in sch can possibly luv doing hw n learning unless dey're freaks. it's only natural 2 hate hw n it's only natural 2 stay pessimistic cos i cant stay optimistic.