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Une fille comme moi
Je t'aime plus que hier, moins que demain ♥
Welcome to the blog of a 17yearoldgirl, where she posts her mindless musings and ramifications.
This is extremely private;
cos this is where she dreams, sleeps and cries.
She lives. 		"We can catch buses and count our change and cross the roads and talk real sentences.
but our innocence goes awfully deep,
and our discreditable secret is that we don’t know anything at all,
and our horrid inner secret is that
we don’t care that we don’t."
xmas is over...
Tuesday, December 27, 2005, 5:33 PM
i realized i din blog 4 14 daes which is quite a record...aniwae i'm jus quite sad dat xmas is over n xmas is a time which symbolizes both happiness n dread cos after xmas dere's only one wk of holidaes left =( i got chocs, chocs n more chocs 4 xmas...lurrveeeee them now i'm a couch potato, seatin at home eatin diff kinds of chocs each dae lol jus hope i wun get fat!! 2dae i went into ms n took screenies wif my buddies in happyville n i had a lot of fun decoratin e xmas tree!! n now i haf another event 2 look 4ward 2---my mum's D&D n after e D&D it's nearly e start of sch le...sighzz one more yr of business, projects, hw n all those frenship prob crap. my BBF gave mi e best advice ever: not 2 mind those ppl n jus carry on wif studies, dun let it try 2 deprove ur results, let everything go e natural way, dun try 2 hard but jus hafta open up more n take a step 4ward. it makes sense.

4 my nex yr in nygh as a senior, i'm lookin 4ward 2 guide my juniors thru their confusing frustratin 1st yr in nygh n i look 4ward 2 havin a mortal =) n i hope my mortal n i will kip on sendin mails n givin pressies till at least T2~i'm not really lookin 4ward wif 2 much antipation on e whole new idea of e stupid SIAs, OM, e responsibilites as a senior in choir n e feelin of left out, extra, out of place. i will change n take a step 4ward 2wards everything...eg frenship problems, family parents problems mayb i haf turnt slightly more opptimistic n left my shadow behind. but my shadow jus occupies mi once i'm on my own. alone. i'll start listening 2 those sad n spirital music from bands lyk evanescence. i wonder if my mind has 2 halves. e dark n e light. e yin n yang. i guess dey exist in every1. but it's a mystery of how 2 control it. some ppl had themselves disciplined n they're completely in control but i'm jus lyk a tightrope walker each step gettin shakier n shakier n i'm afraid dat i'll fall. cos yin n yang exact opposites, they r supposed 2 b equal, 2 balance 2 create harmony. but wad if one side triumphs over another? u always hafta make decisions. u always hafta choose btw one another. dere's only a winner. which side shall i unleash? sighh i'm lost inside my own world again...lost under e surface.

e society is 4eva fast movin.it is a huge tank of paint. once u get in u absorb some of them...u get infected wif bad stuff n u get motivated by gd stuff. it is e same wif animals in e wild. only e strongest survives n e society eliminates out e weak. every1 is fightin against one another 2 achieve something. it's e building block of life. if every1 is fighting, competing over hu achieved e top number of sales, who got e highest result in e exam, who did dis who did dat...how is dere supposed 2 b a balance dis way? in my opinion, e whole world is chaotic. nobody slows down 2 tink bout stuff liddat cos they're 2 wrapped up in their own business. nobody can stop moving cos once they do, dey lose out. is dat supposed 2 b fair? can we get a entire revolution n vote wad we should all become? is it fair dat way? i'm really torn btw choices. 2 view everything in a bigger view. zoomed under e microscope, u c ur life n u decide wad u should do e nex dae, wad u should do in dis wk, accomplish dis month, achieve a goal dis yr n live ur life. den u look at everybody. in e society n u wonder bout each of them. den u look at e whole earth. at e pollution n e politics, at e wars btw nations n petty affairs btw each other, at e hole in e ozone n at ur own hole in ur life. look e other way. from another person's angle. it takes a maturity of tots 2 do dat. so tink about it. listen. see. hear. evil is everywhere is all forms n shapes. but at e same time, goodness is encouragin on. decide.