it has been raiining 4eva...ever since i started my dae. sighh. last nite i slp at 12 midnite den wake at 11am. heex...den on my way bac 2 home from piano lesson e rds flooded n i take off my shoes n wade thru e water barefooted. i swear nex time it kips raining lyk dis i'll walk in e rain barefooted again without an umbrella. i'm crazi de rite? i wonder where e rain comes from...it has been raining 4 more den 6hrs nonstop le. mayb God has accumilated so much tears dat He decided 2 cry them all 2day.
my life's improving le...i jus realized how many ppl cared bout mi in class n how nice dey r. in sec 1 i always felt left out n haf a feelin dat some ppl r always backstabbing mi n i feel unwelcome or even alienated from e class. i tried 2 blend in wif ppl n get into one of those little grps but i always feel extra in btw e ppl. lyk how i'm jus taggin along only but not really considered as on person in e grp. e ppl in my grp treat mi nice but it's not in a true frenz way...dey jus treat mi nice as in a awkward way lyk in e way adults smile n act polite n nice in front of other ppl whom dey dun really like but u can sorta c dat their hospitality is strained. i'm glad 4 myself dat i no longer feel such a strong feeling of being left out n i guess my mood from depressed has gone up much higher now dat i found such fun ppl as frenz. i still cant say dey as good as my p6 frenz, but at least dat's a start. i wish dat dis nice wondrous feeling will neva go away.
i'm startin 2 tink dat dis yr is really gonna b quite a nice year, thou i noe dat i'll definitely meet some rough n bumpy roads along e way...but i tink i'm gonna try 2 look on e better side. jus lyk dat bk i read. bad things r always gonna b bad things but if u look at it in a better pt of view mayb it wun seem so bad...at least it's better den feeling so down all e time. from now own, i've gotten rid of my old shell n came out of my shadow...no more is dere gonna b a storm cloud hanging over my head!!
