2dae was e 1st dae of sch...we din do anything, no lessons or anything. but lessons r gonna start 2moro. so far, my maths, sc, hist, LA teacher haf changed. so haf my form teacher. or form teachers...seriously, i dunno y e sch assigned us TWO form teachers...as if one wasnt enuf...our class is not so bad on discipline is it??
so tmr lessons gonna start. same thing again. ouch...my head hurts. i went 2 BED at bout 10pm. but i went 2 SLEEP at 11pm+ sighh guess i'm jus not quite used. after all, i always slept at 12am++ during e holz. hard 2 believe dat another year has past. it was lyk so fast!! everything jus a whirlwind. black n white. fast mo. i jus stand in e middle of e crowd, infront of all e activity going on n watch ppl past by mi. dey neva really notice mi or hear mi cos e world is 2 big n e society is making 2 much noises. if dey bumped into mi, dey'll jus brush their shoulders n walk off, as if i'm invisible. dat's how i feel. i dun wanna b recognised by e whole world lyk britney spears. but i dun wanna remain annoymous all my life. i jus wanna b accepted. i din realise dat it was so hard. one yr in nygh has exposed mi 2 how mean ppl can b. n i've learnt a new word: backstabbers. in pri sch we neva had dis stuff...we're all so happi n nobody's considered popular etc. wad a pity i had 2 leave dat shred of innocence behind.
i tink when i enter e society 2 face all those ppl when i grow up 2 work...it will b worse. it's more den comparing studies n lookin at who has e lastest stuff or e most "in" things. it'll b competing 4 more pay, higher salary, greater jobs. everybody jus wanna stay lyk a kid. dey sae dat schooling period is e gr8est time of e life. enjoy it. i cant. i'm jus 2 sick of learning, studying, doing hw. i'm jus 2 tired of being pushed about lyk a rag doll n being left out. i tink i've got a lot of frenz. but they're jus phonies. dey noe mi. but yet dey dunno mi. dey jus dun understand. nobody does. reality's jus 2 cruel. life's jus 2 unfair. n it sux.
