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Une fille comme moi
Je t'aime plus que hier, moins que demain ♥
Welcome to the blog of a 17yearoldgirl, where she posts her mindless musings and ramifications.
This is extremely private;
cos this is where she dreams, sleeps and cries.
She lives. 		"We can catch buses and count our change and cross the roads and talk real sentences.
but our innocence goes awfully deep,
and our discreditable secret is that we don’t know anything at all,
and our horrid inner secret is that
we don’t care that we don’t."
everything jus come crashin down
Wednesday, March 01, 2006, 6:49 PM
i really dunno wad's wrong wif myself. or my lyfe. i guess i've been born under an unlucky star. cos my happiness can only last for 4 daes of my freakin life in a row. which takes one over a millionzillion in my life.

everything jus came crushing down. the many many assignments, the many many ppl changing around mi n hatin mi 4 pointing out dat they've changed. the many many worries dat i haf. e fact dat my mum was sick(really sick) still cant get outta my mind. they're hiding something. i noe they r. if not, y wun dey tell mi wad's going on? dey only tell mi a framework. n i'm left on my own 2 pick up e pieces n try 2 put them 2gether. e thing is, i cant piece anything bac again. cos everything dat i ever hoped 4 is now crushed under e reality. y wun dey tell mi e truth?! heh...e truth. may seem lyk such a simple word. but yet it is so powerful, so complex n complicated dat no ones noe wad e truth is. we're living in a world of half-truths. u jus dun get 2 c e full picture. so many crimes n bad stuff haf been put away. hidden from e ppl of e world. so many things dat we fail 2 c. so many things we r blind 2. can u c e ppl dat r dying in 3rd world countires? can u see love instead of money? can u get out of ur life of self-centered ness? can pretty gals wake up from diet pills n surgery? i dun get it. is their brain structure so naive or is mine too crazi? i'm so confused rite now.

if only if some1 can understand. if only someone can stretch out a hand 2 pick mi up. so now i've brok my wings. i'm lie here. there's so many unanswerable questions dat i wanna ask bout life. those ppl dat i tot were frenz turn against mi n shut themselves out when i nid them e most. i may seem happi everydae. being miss smiley n smiling a hundred times a day. but i've fooled u. i'm not happi. inside i'm sad. i wanna cry. only dat e tears wun come so easily. cant u c dat everytime i laugh n i smile there's sadness inside? cant u c dat my laugh is forced? it seems 2 mi dat i've been wearing a mask painted on wif a smile daily. i jus put it on 2 cover up e real mi inside. heck, i dun even noe WHO'S e real mi. would i like her if she comes up? would everybody lyk her if she surfaces? i'm NOT exaggerating. my life is jus a huge mess. a whirlwind of tots. i'm standing in pitch darkness tryin 2 grasp a hand. any hand. to come 2 mi n lead mi into e sunlight. but u guys jus dun get it. nobody does. i'm left alone. how much would i like 2 scream. all e pain i feel inside. how can u open up my heart n wear my own personailty on my face? how can i make everyone accept mi? HOW????????????????????

crushed. i'm jus way 2 crushed 2 stand up.