heh wad was dat annoymous post about? things r sprawling way out of my control n i cant help it. i try n i try 2 tell my parents to accomodate each other better, to forgive n forget, to understand each other's mistakes......wad's e damn use of it all? it was so naive n stupid of mi 2 tink dat dey can patch up their relationship! it was so innocent n optimistic of mi 2 tink dat everything will work out! welll it's near 11pm n both my parents r out. dat's rite out. w/o telling mi where they r. i had went out earlier cos i cant stand their yelling n den i had talked 35mins to alex, felt better n went back. n discovered dat e flat was empty. heh heh. now i no longer give a damn to how this is gonna work out, at this rate, yelling everydae, i'd rather dat they divorce...i'll live wif my mum n i wont even fucking mind. everydae jus as we all seat down 4 dinner my mum will kick up a ruckus. it is as if she's addictive 2 it n she wun feel comfortable unless she haf something 2 holler about. den my dad will get angry cos he absolutely HATES ppl yelling when he's tryin 2 eat---he wants e whole family 2 seat down n haf a nice quiet peaceful civilised meal. pity dat my mum isnt too civil though. n pity dat i'm not at all interested in dat "perfect family dinner" thingy.
how can i keep these horrible things 2 myself? i hafta vent it out somehow...i cant stand their everydae shouting as if i'm not pissed enuf alredy. n my foolish mum, she bought a flat in toh guan dat she dun like. she push e blame on my dad, saying dat he forced her 2 make decisions rashly. come to tink of it, my mum fulfil e every requirement in my criteria 2 hate someone. 1) she simply lurveees to push e blame on others. 2) she is insensitive to other's feelings 3) she talks w/o her brains turned on 4) she loves 2 yell in dat uncivilised asshole way of hers. all of dat come to my image of a b-i-t-c-h. yup i noe it's disrespectful 2 call her dat n all but it is always her who come home n make both mi n my dad so irate. n it's always her 2 b e 1st one 2 start a yelling game. it's OWAES her dat cause all dat unpleasant stuff. wad's her problem?!
oh wellll 2 divert my attention from those petty issues, stop talkin about this. it jus drives mi up e wall more. i cut my hair. went 2 cut hair ytd. dat woman who cut my hair made my fringe so short n i haf a totally different look now. it seems as if my hair is a little spiky instead of its original smoothness. but nvm...i like changes. n i'm pleasantly surprised dat my parents still allow mi 2 b up here bloggin...i tink they're gonna get mi 2 come offline soon. i feel like living in a boarding sch cos i'll b free from e crutches of my parents. no more naggin, yelling,screaming=no more frustration 4 mi! i'll become worry-free! n i can take care of myself n my studies...so i guess it'll b no prob. hmm mayb can do boarding sch wif frens. =) life is jus so boring. u dun haf a goddamn goal at all. i mean wad's ther to look forward to cept for ur bdae n holidays? other den dat it's all doing e same stuff everydae. students go 2 sch everydae. adults go 2 work everydae. n old ppl seat around n bore their asses out everydae. n when u're old it's too late 2 get a real life anymore yarh so...most ppl doesnt haf a good life full or successes n ambition n hope. most ppl jus drag themself to get up every morning n do their schdule properly to get everything 2 go smoothly n normally. life is jus a long road wif some turning points 2 give u a bit of change in ur daily schdules. other than dat, it's jus a big *poof* wif occassional surprises n tradegies like falling in love, watching someone die or quarrelling wif sb. it's all alike. dat's wad i hate so much about it. i'd rather be a bird than b myself. at least a bird gets 2 fly n discover how blue e sky is which is so much more fun than sitting at home watching your parents tear each other into pieces verbally.
