rite. i blew up. i completely lost it. i cried over my dumb maths test. i cant believe i cried over some stupid little thing like dat. after coming back home, i told my mum: this time maths test i alredy died cos i din have enough time to finish all those questions. at LEAST 8m minused off bcos i din finish it. may minus 9-10m oso. den plus all those dat i careless did wrongly etc. i guess i will get B3 again. sighhhhhh after last maths test scoring a high of 44/50. guess this time gonna drop to an all time low huh? so i told my mum dun expect i get too good this time. n den she jus said(concernly) "i'm very worried about ur maths. everytime u owaes tell mi dat u dun have confidence over ur test. u noe maths is the MOST important subject cos u needa study it all e way to university n even beyond dat as well. if u have a problem with maths, u must solve it now! if not it'll be too late. u mus spend more time for maths since this is a subject u struggle at. do u need tuition for maths?" n i jus lost it. i jus cried n screamed at her. cos i guess i was too emotionally n physically drained. i dun feel like hearing all those things dat i dun wanna hear about maths.

i feel dat i alredy tried to revise a lot n i dun haf any much more time to offer to maths. i haf 3rd lang n piano n hw n other subjects JUST AS IMPORTANT AS MATHS to handle. i dun want a fucking tuition either cos i dun wanna deal wif any more maths outside sch. like as if i dun haf enough maths lessons alredy! X( i jus dun like my mum saying all those things i dun wanna hear. so i jus screamed n retorted back at her. so i started a tirade n jus rebut wadeva things she said. i oso dunno y i suddenly feel so angered. i guess i jus had too much things going on n too many things bottled up inside mi dat i decided to let it all out since she tried to pull out my cork. yup dat's rite i exploded. so now i have a stupid headache.

but thank god lex was online at dat time or i would have cried n cried like mad esp after MY mum lost it n shouted at mi. i dunno y but i guess talking wif him owaes make mi feel better cos i he owaes so lame go n crack so many jokes n den divert my attention n make mi not feel so depressed. i guess i needa thank him for being my friend!! X) i tink nowadays students n adults r all so stressed. some of my frenz haf many out of sch lessons n tuitions n den some of them haf aep n 3rd lang together oso. sighhhh so stressed out wif so many tests n projects to do. jus as adults are stressed to work n earn money everyday to support the family. i wish everyone can jus slow down or stop to wonder about more better things in life to make our whole life more meaningful...instead of jus hurrying about everydae doing our own things n not caring about others. we dun get any more nice music for all those classical instruments and we dont get famous paintings anymore. cos i guess we're jus too busy to wonder about those seemingly "trivial" things. n dat's a sad fact of life.