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Une fille comme moi
Je t'aime plus que hier, moins que demain ♥
Welcome to the blog of a 17yearoldgirl, where she posts her mindless musings and ramifications.
This is extremely private;
cos this is where she dreams, sleeps and cries.
She lives. 		"We can catch buses and count our change and cross the roads and talk real sentences.
but our innocence goes awfully deep,
and our discreditable secret is that we don’t know anything at all,
and our horrid inner secret is that
we don’t care that we don’t."
i guess this is life
Monday, October 23, 2006, 5:39 PM
life has its little ups and downs. mine jus came and went. i moved to toh guan on sat and unpacked 90% of the stuff by sun. my rm is realllllly nice...a low jap style bed, a ball-shaped glass dome as the light. two HUGE wardrobes which reach up to the ceiling and built in cabinets. oh plus a 100% fluffy white wool rug. SOOOOOOOOOOO NICE!! XD my room looks great. and so does the rest of my house. cos we got new L shaped sofa, 6 seater dining table and 2 balconies...and 2 toilets. wif really nice sinks (:

but today i tink my mum is being pms-y...after all she's old*...* ya so u noe wad i mean..i'm kinda mkaing up excuses for her behaviour. this morning, she showed mi the shortcut to work to JE bus interchange so i can take the bus to sch and i tot she was going to take the other over head bridge, which is the longer route. so i didnt get it and i argued wif her over why she was going dat way instead. and she hit mi. she smacked my back. and i jus stomped off as fast as possible to the bus interchange and i didnt want to argue wif her anymore..is it my fault dat i got confused over the overhead bridge?? and today it was raining DAMN HARD when i reached home by bus and i got home and found it empty and it was weird cos today my mum told mi she was on leave at home. then i found all the windows opened and the wardrobes and cabinet doors were open as well so i was worried cos i didnt noe where my mum was. then after she came back, she accused mi of being rude to her and interferring in her work. cos i tidied up the dining table and the coffee table by storing away stuff and i accidentally broke a small porcelain container in the process. and she scolded mi for dat. and she hit mi again. HELLOOOOOOO i want my home to be nice and neat as well i dont want all the rubbish overflowing like what happened in our old hse. i want the table tops to be bare with only minimal decorative items on top. i didnt want to mess up my new house since all the furni are new and dey should be treated properly...and my mum said it was unneccessary of mi to clean up the dining table cos she didnt tink it was too messy. but i wish she'll open up her eyes and LOOK. dat table had old books, a comb, a hair clip, 2 cups, 2 jam bottles AND a lunch tray lying on it. IS DAT WAD U CALL NEAT???????????????? SHE was the one who was always asking mi to put away things even when my room is not particularly messy! and i bet the only reason she said it was neat was dat she dont want to own up to it. dat's wad i hate about her. and the thing i was most hurt was dat she jus simply accused mi of messing things up when i was TIDYING things up. and she didnt understand the fact dat i want a nice beautiful home to live in that's y i put the stuff away...in my old house, i didnt even care no matter how messy it was! i tink i totally lost her. mi and her jus lost dat bond and we just dont understand each other anymore. yet another depressing thing for mi. anw but i'm not really depressed all the time it's jus dat when i get some horrible experience i wanna vent it out and so i blog about it. but it's not neccessary dat i blog about happy things all the time. i didnt even tell my mum i want a beautiful home so dat was y i tidied things up and accidentally broke dat porcelain container. i didnt want to and i dont noe why. i jus felt dat it wouldnt have changed anything even if i did cos she would prob insist on herself being in the rite and she wont understand my need to tidy the things up. she wont.

i guess when i grow up, my relationship with my parents wouldn't be exceptionally close either. we're not meant to be together for too long or else we'll quarell and ruin our relationship even more. *sigh* but i'll try to focus on the bright side. there's a possibility i'm getting a cat (: but then again, xue yan said her mum may not allow her to go for ice sk8ing cos her mum tink it's too ex. *sigh* i told her dat i'll personally plead and beg her mum if neccessary. i'll do anything---ANYTHING to learn ice sk8ing. and i'll give up ANYTHING to get a cat. i'm dat kinda determined subborn person and i cant change a bit about mi at all. guess dat's jus the way i'm meant to be. jus like the way life is. there's ups and downs n u cant do anything about it. it's beyond my control. my aim is to jus realise my goals and fulfil the responsibilities dat i'm supposed to do. then i'll be perfectly satisfied.