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Une fille comme moi
Je t'aime plus que hier, moins que demain ♥
Welcome to the blog of a 17yearoldgirl, where she posts her mindless musings and ramifications.
This is extremely private;
cos this is where she dreams, sleeps and cries.
She lives. 		"We can catch buses and count our change and cross the roads and talk real sentences.
but our innocence goes awfully deep,
and our discreditable secret is that we don’t know anything at all,
and our horrid inner secret is that
we don’t care that we don’t."
My Happy Ending (not)
Monday, July 07, 2008, 10:15 PM
My parents are raging a war again...and in the midst of it all is my piano exam which took place today. And i screwed everything up.
Scales: Made a lot of mistakes along the way...played the wrong key twice was reminded by my examiner before playing the correct one.
Pieces: Messed up 1st piece. It was a complete wreck. No melody line, no dynamics, no structure, nothing. And I made a big mistake in the 2nd part of the piece as well. Had to try like three times before i got it right again. It was really really very bad and unsteady. I think i'll fail the 1st one. Second piece got slightly better along the way, but there were still stupid mistakes that i don't normally make in the large scales ): 3rd piece was so-so, I think my rthym was unsteady in some parts and the piano made the left hand accompaniement much too loud ): I hate the piano in the exam room.
Sight reading: Was given a andante expressio piece, used pedalling, but was horrible. Bad rthym, wrong notes aplenty. Sigh.
Finally AURAL: A section all wrong I think. B section mostly correct, C section partly correct, D section so so. I FORGOT TO MENTION USE OF DISCHORD IN LEFT HAND WHEN THE EXAMINER ASKED. And instead, i said syncopated rthym. What was i thinking?!?!??! Romantic period doesn't even come close to that. STUPID ME.

I feel so mad and frustrated and helpless. I spent time, money and some effort to prepare for this final exam and it turns out like a piece of crap. I'm so stupid. I really feel like apologising to my examiner. All my performance during exam probably only showed one thing: that i was UNPREPARED. Wtf. everything was ok when i did it at home. SCREW IT. I feel so frustrated now.

I really really really really do not want to fail this exam. But everything I do is useless now. BOOHOOHOO. I'm sorry, mum. I'm really so not living up to your expectations.