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Une fille comme moi
Je t'aime plus que hier, moins que demain ♥
Welcome to the blog of a 17yearoldgirl, where she posts her mindless musings and ramifications.
This is extremely private;
cos this is where she dreams, sleeps and cries.
She lives. 		"We can catch buses and count our change and cross the roads and talk real sentences.
but our innocence goes awfully deep,
and our discreditable secret is that we don’t know anything at all,
and our horrid inner secret is that
we don’t care that we don’t."
Overwhelming ;
Wednesday, April 01, 2009, 8:33 PM
There are so many many things going on lately I really don't know what to do and how to go about doing them. I didn't get selected to go for the europe trip during june. I didn't get into Interact Exco shortlisted applicants after yesterday's interview. The results were announced today after yesterday. Actually I was expecting it because after the interview, I had this gut feeling that I was not going to get in. It's easy to tell when your interviewers like you and have a positive feeling about you. At the interact interview, i just felt like i screwed the whole thing up and the exco was skeptical about what I was saying. It didn't make it any better that the pres was chao lian to everyone who was being interviewed. Now I really really hope I can be able to make it to fac com (though I think the chances of it is quite low since only one person can get through, out of 7 other people that are running for it).

Applying for things and not getting through still makes me feel bad. I know that I cannot always get what I want but it's just disappointing sometimes to find out that you were not good enough for something. And I just feel like applying for a lot of things, but a small voice in my heart is telling me that I'll end up with nothing because I'm lousy. Now I know everything adds up and accumulates. If you're not in some leadership position in nanyang, people kind of look down on you and think that you're not as good as those that are in some leadership position back in nanyang. I regret not being more enthusiastic about such things back in Sec 2. But the good thing is, I'm just glad that I've secured YAP and got selected out of so many others. And I've also been picked for a teacher to be the host for Arts Fest and now I'll have to prepare for it. I had reservations about taking it up at first but now I think I should do this kind of thing just once in my many years of schooling...

And academically, I also have so much work to do. Next week, I have math assignment test, chem class test 3 and econs lecture test. It doesn't help that I still don't really know how to write an econs essay...I've tried scheduling consult with my econs tutor but her schedule just clashes too much with mine that it's quite hopeless. I still have PI and Econs ILP due by next week as well. And this week, I have been and will be going home late for every day except for monday. But at least I have YAP carwash to look forward to tomorrow, I think it'll be fun!

I must learn to be my own cheerleader now and look at the big picture and work towards it. GO SITONG. GO SITONG AND HER FRIENDS!

(I can't say how much I love you guys ♥)