Je t'aime plus que hier, moins que demain ♥
Welcome to the blog of a 17yearoldgirl, where she posts her mindless musings and ramifications. This is extremely private; cos this is where she dreams, sleeps and cries. She lives.
"We can catch buses and count our change and cross the roads and talk real sentences. but our innocence goes awfully deep, and our discreditable secret is that we don’t know anything at all, and our horrid inner secret is that we don’t care that we don’t."
why don't you just let me die
Monday, April 20, 2009, 8:14 PM
I think I have gone back being emo and embracing my sad pathetic life that is full of shit and routine in which I find nothing but pain. Yes, life is painful for me. I feel like I can't breathe these days. I put in so much time and effort only to get back crap results. That just completely and totally demoralises me. I shadn't say anything about pointless studying, but I totally hate it when I studied and put in effort but got back shit. It's just like a big slap right in the face.
And now I just can't find any motivation to study. I feel like I'm doing it for nothing. Since I'll be getting back crap even if I work my ass off. As expected, I screwed up my econs lecture test last week, or was that last last week? Time pasts so fast till it all becomes blurry and similar. Yup anyway I screwed that up, as well as my econs ILP which constitutes quite a considerable amount of percentage as well. I look at my econs ILP result and compare it with other groups' and I get bile rising up my throat. And today's bio test was just a killer. All the time and sleep I lost trying to memorise the structural and storage saccharides, the haemoglobin and collagen structure and the various different functions and structures of cells organelles amounts to NOTHING because they weren't tested at all. Instead, they tested a lot on water potential, which I couldn't answer. And I already 7 marks because I didn't even DO those questions that I couldn't answer. Which is just fucking fantastic. Now I can add it to the list of tests that I've screwed up, which consist of econs lecture test, math class test and chem class test.
And today we made the decision to pull out of SAGE because we simply don't have time for it any more. And it's not like we'd get anything out from it because so far we didn't learn anything at all. Everything is just so screwed up. Even my period is screwed up. And I'm just so tired of it all.
I'm hanging on what's left of my sanity by listening to Adele. Her soulful voice makes me calm and she won a Grammy by singing the song below, she's like the next best thing besides Tim Tam and Sara Bareilles.
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I'm just a girl next door that has super long legs and a considerable height that scares off guys :D
I love to shop, sing, travel and make music of my own.
I like superficial things like bubbles and flowers, that disappear fast into the sunset.
I like both simple and elaborate things in life, and that explains why I learnt French from 4 years.
In case you must really know, I'm seventeen and ready to take flight.
I study currently at HCI, where I'm loved by my friends.
And the guys there increased my self esteem :D
{i want to give love and be loved}
Wishlist - Unconditional Desires
Decorate me with F21, TOPSHOP and RIVER ISLAND and I'll love you for the rest of my life.
Feed me with premium chocolates :D
Kitty! I want a kitty so bad!
Gold chain necklaces
Spiffy accessories (bangles, charm bracelets etc)
Headbands with ribbons/flowers
Cloth bow hairclips
LOVE, FRIENDSHIP, HAPPINESS
why don't you just let me die
Monday, April 20, 2009, 8:14 PM
I think I have gone back being emo and embracing my sad pathetic life that is full of shit and routine in which I find nothing but pain. Yes, life is painful for me. I feel like I can't breathe these days. I put in so much time and effort only to get back crap results. That just completely and totally demoralises me. I shadn't say anything about pointless studying, but I totally hate it when I studied and put in effort but got back shit. It's just like a big slap right in the face.
And now I just can't find any motivation to study. I feel like I'm doing it for nothing. Since I'll be getting back crap even if I work my ass off. As expected, I screwed up my econs lecture test last week, or was that last last week? Time pasts so fast till it all becomes blurry and similar. Yup anyway I screwed that up, as well as my econs ILP which constitutes quite a considerable amount of percentage as well. I look at my econs ILP result and compare it with other groups' and I get bile rising up my throat. And today's bio test was just a killer. All the time and sleep I lost trying to memorise the structural and storage saccharides, the haemoglobin and collagen structure and the various different functions and structures of cells organelles amounts to NOTHING because they weren't tested at all. Instead, they tested a lot on water potential, which I couldn't answer. And I already 7 marks because I didn't even DO those questions that I couldn't answer. Which is just fucking fantastic. Now I can add it to the list of tests that I've screwed up, which consist of econs lecture test, math class test and chem class test.
And today we made the decision to pull out of SAGE because we simply don't have time for it any more. And it's not like we'd get anything out from it because so far we didn't learn anything at all. Everything is just so screwed up. Even my period is screwed up. And I'm just so tired of it all.
I'm hanging on what's left of my sanity by listening to Adele. Her soulful voice makes me calm and she won a Grammy by singing the song below, she's like the next best thing besides Tim Tam and Sara Bareilles.
