Preparing for block tests had me pulling my hair out and going into hysteria in front of all my friends. Well done. 2 hours and I only did 4 integration questions, with a lot of holes in between. HOW THE F*** AM I GOING TO PULL OFF MATH BT IN THAT KIND OF CONDITION?!
And right now, I still have not done a single thing to my EoM or GP revision and I think I forgot like 40% of the stuff I memorized for bio and my chem lies in pieces. Econs - i really don't know. Have to depend on luck to score points for that essay. This sucks. Blocks sucks. I suck D:
On a happier note, I'm going to have to fetch Qihao with his gang later this evening, and my reward for fetching him is going to be some $40-per-head buffet at this jap restaurant, which I insisted on changing the venue cos I can't possibly pay for it. But they insist that I go. So most likely I'll have to pay back using monthly installments. And...I'm only paying cos I want to, they don't even care about whether the money comes back or not.
Don't we all like finer things in life? But it's those things that defines the rich and the poor, it's that thin line between being rich and being willing to spend. Sometimes -esp when i go shopping- I wish that I'm rich and that I'm able to afford all those pretty stuff to make myself feel prettier. And then at moments like those, I'll pick up the stuff that I like and tell myself: this is what you are working for right now and then I'll put them back on the shelf. But at other times I think that it's really very pointless just to work your ass off to greater riches in the future. Sure, all that retail therapy and knowing that you can adorn yourself with better material things...but what is really the point in it all? So what?
Actually, all I ever wanted was just happiness. C'est tout. Il n'y a rien.
