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Une fille comme moi
Je t'aime plus que hier, moins que demain ♥
Welcome to the blog of a 17yearoldgirl, where she posts her mindless musings and ramifications.
This is extremely private;
cos this is where she dreams, sleeps and cries.
She lives. 		"We can catch buses and count our change and cross the roads and talk real sentences.
but our innocence goes awfully deep,
and our discreditable secret is that we don’t know anything at all,
and our horrid inner secret is that
we don’t care that we don’t."
I need to stop thinking and start doing
Thursday, June 04, 2009, 11:28 PM
I nearly decided to abandon this blog and move to lj! But when I weighed both of these online blogging sites, I hate lj for its hard css codes(albeit beautiful layouts) and also its irritating ads. If there were to be no ads, then I would need to change my account to a basic one and that would mean me only getting 6 userpics and I cannot upload my bloody photos on lj! How unfair is that. So I've come to revive my old blog :D

So many things happened in just one short month (my last post was in april) that everything just looks like a whirl. There are lot of things that I've done, a lot of things that people did to me, that I don't feel safe telling to people. Maybe I should lock up this blog with a password!
Looking back now, I think I've spent my time so far in HC to my maximum. I've made wonderful friends that love me as much as I love them, I gone out for many concerts and outings with my fantastic class, I've been told that I'm actually pretty (which still doesn't seem believable to me), I've celebrated my birthday with a cake and a song from my friends, I've spoilt guen's cam and still hear her tell me that it's ok, I've hugged a guy tightly and I've been the emcee for arts fest. It actually doesn't seem all that bad when you leave out the feeling of tireness during lectures, sleeping only 5 hours a day and feeling disgusted at myself for sleeping during school. 
And that pathetic feeling of failure when I thought I've reached my brink.

I just sent qihao off to guangzhou in yesterday morning and I'm already experiencing post-qihao blues, damn it. That guy simply takes up too much of my time in my life, without even me noticing it. He's like always the first one I think of to disturb, cos 80% of the time he's slacking, anyway. And he's accountable for the $41+ phone bill that my parents received recently too. HEHH. (I need to change my bloody classic plan to the students one asap)

Things between my parents are hard now...again. I just CANNOT find anything to talk to them about...it's like even though we live under one roof, I feel like I'm a tenant cos half of the time I'm wishing that I can go sleep over at friends' houses or just get out with friends :/ what to do?
I just cannot connect with my mum anymore. When she talks to me, it's as though she's interrogating me and I hate that. Damn it why are my family dynamics forever so screwed.