Je t'aime plus que hier, moins que demain ♥ Welcome to the blog of a 17yearoldgirl, where she posts her mindless musings and ramifications. This is extremely private; cos this is where she dreams, sleeps and cries. She lives. | "We can catch buses and count our change and cross the roads and talk real sentences. but our innocence goes awfully deep, and our discreditable secret is that we don’t know anything at all, and our horrid inner secret is that we don’t care that we don’t." |
Thursday, January 26, 2006, 5:07 PM
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Saturday, January 14, 2006, 2:13 PM
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Tuesday, January 10, 2006, 9:50 PM
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Sunday, January 08, 2006, 5:15 PM
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my life's improving le...i jus realized how many ppl cared bout mi in class n how nice dey r. in sec 1 i always felt left out n haf a feelin dat some ppl r always backstabbing mi n i feel unwelcome or even alienated from e class. i tried 2 blend in wif ppl n get into one of those little grps but i always feel extra in btw e ppl. lyk how i'm jus taggin along only but not really considered as on person in e grp. e ppl in my grp treat mi nice but it's not in a true frenz way...dey jus treat mi nice as in a awkward way lyk in e way adults smile n act polite n nice in front of other ppl whom dey dun really like but u can sorta c dat their hospitality is strained. i'm glad 4 myself dat i no longer feel such a strong feeling of being left out n i guess my mood from depressed has gone up much higher now dat i found such fun ppl as frenz. i still cant say dey as good as my p6 frenz, but at least dat's a start. i wish dat dis nice wondrous feeling will neva go away.
i'm startin 2 tink dat dis yr is really gonna b quite a nice year, thou i noe dat i'll definitely meet some rough n bumpy roads along e way...but i tink i'm gonna try 2 look on e better side. jus lyk dat bk i read. bad things r always gonna b bad things but if u look at it in a better pt of view mayb it wun seem so bad...at least it's better den feeling so down all e time. from now own, i've gotten rid of my old shell n came out of my shadow...no more is dere gonna b a storm cloud hanging over my head!!
Friday, January 06, 2006, 8:32 PM
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Tuesday, January 03, 2006, 6:08 PM
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so tmr lessons gonna start. same thing again. ouch...my head hurts. i went 2 BED at bout 10pm. but i went 2 SLEEP at 11pm+ sighh guess i'm jus not quite used. after all, i always slept at 12am++ during e holz. hard 2 believe dat another year has past. it was lyk so fast!! everything jus a whirlwind. black n white. fast mo. i jus stand in e middle of e crowd, infront of all e activity going on n watch ppl past by mi. dey neva really notice mi or hear mi cos e world is 2 big n e society is making 2 much noises. if dey bumped into mi, dey'll jus brush their shoulders n walk off, as if i'm invisible. dat's how i feel. i dun wanna b recognised by e whole world lyk britney spears. but i dun wanna remain annoymous all my life. i jus wanna b accepted. i din realise dat it was so hard. one yr in nygh has exposed mi 2 how mean ppl can b. n i've learnt a new word: backstabbers. in pri sch we neva had dis stuff...we're all so happi n nobody's considered popular etc. wad a pity i had 2 leave dat shred of innocence behind.
i tink when i enter e society 2 face all those ppl when i grow up 2 work...it will b worse. it's more den comparing studies n lookin at who has e lastest stuff or e most "in" things. it'll b competing 4 more pay, higher salary, greater jobs. everybody jus wanna stay lyk a kid. dey sae dat schooling period is e gr8est time of e life. enjoy it. i cant. i'm jus 2 sick of learning, studying, doing hw. i'm jus 2 tired of being pushed about lyk a rag doll n being left out. i tink i've got a lot of frenz. but they're jus phonies. dey noe mi. but yet dey dunno mi. dey jus dun understand. nobody does. reality's jus 2 cruel. life's jus 2 unfair. n it sux.
Monday, January 02, 2006, 5:19 PM
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