den last sat, she woke up yelling about e flat 1st thing in e morning, woke mi up 7am like a crow squawking. den after yelling stragith 4 like more than 1 hr she went BACK 2 SLP. dat's like 10am. den she ask us 2 shuddup cos she cant slp properly. wad's her problem?! alex sae is depression. i hope not. if she haf depression i'll probably gonna haf hallucination. denn later at nite, my dad went to giant imm to buy e usual groceries veggies fruits bread n stuff...den my mum phone him 2 bring back dinner. my dad i dunno wad he was tinkin at dat moment, purposely refused her so of course my mum went mad again, saying he purposely make her angry. den my mum started screaming at mi 2 go out wif her 2 haf dinner at restaurant since my dad can go out. she was like "why ur dad can go out liddat n we cant? i bring u 2 eat restaurant! den we go see movies! even more better den him!!" den i was like there's nth good showing in e cinemas at e moment jus go out 4 dinner can le. den she was like: dinner only?! (she practically shrieked) den after dinner we go bac home so early 4 wad? huh?! okie den we went jp 4 dinner(at 1st she wanna go orchard den decided dat she was too tired 2 walk) den during our whole time out, she was really nice to mi. n i was like so surprised! she talk 2 mi nicely n everything, went wif mi 2 eat sushi cos i wanna eat dat, den bought mi myuk pencil box n wallet! i was wondering did she eat sth dat addled her brain. one moment she was shoting n e nex she was so...nice. i really begin 2 suspect she haf depression. either dat or heavy mood swings.

den todae she n my dad finally had a totally civilised normal meal like normal family. pheww...after all those daes of indigestion watching them scream across e table. bleh. i tink mayb jus mayb things r gonna clear up. i needa inform Lex rite awy! sighh 2dae choir so damn "ughh" i tink cor-(our student conductor) was being pms-y...she was like picking on every section n asking us 2 repeat e same parts again n again n she even kicked out S1 n S2! which she neva done b4. i dunno wad's wrong wif her. den she was being totally bitchy when talking wif mr matthew lim oso...in a kinda cynical tone. cos mr lim came 2 c how we were doing wif e family concert songs n all. >_<" ohh welllll tmr choir again jus hope cor's pms thingy goes away! n hope my sore throat go away too!

*smile a bright fake smile 4 mi will ya?

how can i keep these horrible things 2 myself? i hafta vent it out somehow...i cant stand their everydae shouting as if i'm not pissed enuf alredy. n my foolish mum, she bought a flat in toh guan dat she dun like. she push e blame on my dad, saying dat he forced her 2 make decisions rashly. come to tink of it, my mum fulfil e every requirement in my criteria 2 hate someone. 1) she simply lurveees to push e blame on others. 2) she is insensitive to other's feelings 3) she talks w/o her brains turned on 4) she loves 2 yell in dat uncivilised asshole way of hers. all of dat come to my image of a b-i-t-c-h. yup i noe it's disrespectful 2 call her dat n all but it is always her who come home n make both mi n my dad so irate. n it's always her 2 b e 1st one 2 start a yelling game. it's OWAES her dat cause all dat unpleasant stuff. wad's her problem?!

oh wellll 2 divert my attention from those petty issues, stop talkin about this. it jus drives mi up e wall more. i cut my hair. went 2 cut hair ytd. dat woman who cut my hair made my fringe so short n i haf a totally different look now. it seems as if my hair is a little spiky instead of its original smoothness. but nvm...i like changes. n i'm pleasantly surprised dat my parents still allow mi 2 b up here bloggin...i tink they're gonna get mi 2 come offline soon. i feel like living in a boarding sch cos i'll b free from e crutches of my parents. no more naggin, yelling,screaming=no more frustration 4 mi! i'll become worry-free! n i can take care of myself n my studies...so i guess it'll b no prob. hmm mayb can do boarding sch wif frens. =) life is jus so boring. u dun haf a goddamn goal at all. i mean wad's ther to look forward to cept for ur bdae n holidays? other den dat it's all doing e same stuff everydae. students go 2 sch everydae. adults go 2 work everydae. n old ppl seat around n bore their asses out everydae. n when u're old it's too late 2 get a real life anymore yarh so...most ppl doesnt haf a good life full or successes n ambition n hope. most ppl jus drag themself to get up every morning n do their schdule properly to get everything 2 go smoothly n normally. life is jus a long road wif some turning points 2 give u a bit of change in ur daily schdules. other than dat, it's jus a big *poof* wif occassional surprises n tradegies like falling in love, watching someone die or quarrelling wif sb. it's all alike. dat's wad i hate so much about it. i'd rather be a bird than b myself. at least a bird gets 2 fly n discover how blue e sky is which is so much more fun than sitting at home watching your parents tear each other into pieces verbally.