oooo another late post bout nyglitters! i feel so happi dat day cos i performed in esplanade 4 the 1st time!! but it isnt as scary thou. cos i guess choir got a lot of ppl ba n den the audience seat so far away. i dun feel scared at all compared to dat time cosi bello backstage palms sweating cold sweat. =X aniwae it was another great production! i guess we all had fun...from 10am reach sch to 10+pm more than 12 hrs le! but it was great thou. much better den staying at home n being bored by my parents. hmmmm this sat someone invited mi 2 go their church thing. but i haf sooo many things to do! get geog done, revise for chinese culture, science n hist. den still geog script. umm plus science readups. i dun feel like going ): feel so guilty cos i promised dat person le. sighhhhhhh everytime so busy oso not my fault. dat event will occupy my whole sat de lor. shall not go. 4 the sake of tests. mus still keep up the good results to go bicultural n get scholarship! *pooof*

i tink this round of sabs not fun at all. cept for some things larh. the manga mania is a complete waste of time cos i din really learn anything cept from the stuff on the net dat i research myself. it shld b sth dat i can learn not from the net >:[ but i kinda liked chinese drama thou. it was half fun. lawl. tmr is the chinese drama presentation we din even rehearse at all n we dunno our lines at all. not script. din even noe who b wad roles. oh yaa i watched samurai X 4 manga mania. n i tink it's not bad for a anime movie! cos it haf pretty deep meaning behind. life is not about getting revenge, it's about caring for the ones you loved. bcos samurais r warriors, dey've killed so many ppl, samurai X (kenshin) feel guilty about taking away life. n the life dey take away r valued by others like their loved ones too. so kenshin only carry his sword for self-defence neva for attacking purposes. he has stopped using the blade of the sword but instead use e blunt side. this act is truly honouring those who died n preventing more blood from being shed at times of civil wars. den today oso watched a video on 雷雨 it's a drama show written by 曹雨. he wrote the script for 5 yrs from 18-25. it's about a love tradegy in which the characters were all forced to death in the end bcos of lies n other things dat were untold. sometimes humans can b pretty short sighted n den in the end dey do stupid things n b so calculative but the ones who end up suffering r themselves. i dont wanna b like those ppl. dun wanna b those materialistic ppl wif only goals for their own selfish needs. recently i dunno it's wad thing the buddhists all burn paper. i really hate this time of the year. burning paper not only contributes greatly to air pollution, it oso litter the ground full of gold paper n candles dat those ppl dun bother to clean up after burning. the ashes from the paper get blown into my rm n my face everytime. sometimes dey even burn the stuff on the ground, making the floor charred. n wad do they do dat for? i noe it's a believe n everything but dont they realise jus bcos dey believe in these kinda things, dozens of paper r made n den burnt jus for a belief? i'm not biased towards them or wad but i tink dat's not really an appropraite way to show their belief for their religion.

n wad really strikes mi is dat china dun haf such paper burning thingys even thou there's still buddhists living there. n the number is not small. so y cant the buddhists here show their faith in their religion in a more envrionmentally friendly way? n usually the cookies dey put on paper plates as offerings get eaten by greedy birdies aniwae n i personally tink dat totally defeats the purpose of the offering. instead of sth good, those food turn into snacks for birds dat jus peck at them viciously. wad's the point? humans owaes make this kinda mistake. we buy things n spend money n our resources for nth. most of the time, we jus waste them. so now i set up a rule for myself. b4 buying something ask urself whether u really need dat n is going to use it regularly. if not, dont buy it.

what is life?

it is a cycle. repetitive days of doing the same thing everydae. u get up at e same time, u seat e bus at e same time, u reach sch at e same time. den u go thru all those lessons n e nex dae u wake up n do it again. not only is there the boringness n the meaninglessness, life is oso full of crap. we worry constantly about whether we're gonna get fat, whether we can fit in the fast moving society, whether our studies r gonna b okay etc. to top it all, we've got our parents continuously restricting us to do this whole big list of things n tryin to decide wad's rite for us. dey tink dat if we dont do as they say, we're messing up ourselves. cos wadeva dey sae is like 100% correct, all from the experience from these boring yrs of life. they've read this this this bk telling them this, dey've seen that that that tv show dat tells them that. and so, dey tink wad dey say is correct therefore good for us therefore we mus follow n do exactly as they say or else dey will get mad. wad kind of stupid thing is dat???????? well it may b true wad dey say is correct but it's not neccessarily true dat wadeva dey sae is good 4 us. i mean, we're living our lives, NOT them. we can form our opinions to things rite?!

life is jus a thing we go thru. y shall we continue to live then if it's so boring? the simplest explanation is dat we're probably scared to do suicide n escape from life. another reason is dat ppl live life with a goal. dey wanna achieve sth at the deadline dat they set 4 themselves. some ppl may find it challenging but definitely NOT me. i'm alredy sick of all dat cos i've went thru it like a thousand times. when we as students, we set a general goal 4 ourselves to achieve good results n academic skills. then, we can get a high pay job. when we're working middle aged ppl, we set a goal 4 ourselves to continue to work harder 4 better job positions etc. when we're old n retired, we jus haf a boring normal life with like 0 goals, unless u count making sure u stay healthy so as not 2 fall sick n burden ur family a goal. but every phrase is gonna b a repetitive cycle. when we're in kindergarden, we dun haf so complex thinking so we jus happily go 2 preschool everyday n then jus play n waste a whole load of time wif our frenz n go home happily. but now, it's different. our brain naturally develop so our tots oso will develop. so we're helpless to wad fate lies 4 us, we cant stop this repetitive cycle. mayb wad we can do to encourage us on is to help out some disabled ppl, homeless animals, ppl with problems even worse than us. we owaes tink our lives suck but we neva thought of how others may suck even even more than ours. than besides helping others, we can recycle, conserve n join activities dat allow us to contribute to make the world a better place 4 everyone. then, at the end of the day, mayb jus mayb, u'll feel accomplished n content.

today's racial harmony day was quite boring. hci din even haf lessons n still can wear home clothes. unlike us. welll but i did CIP today. metally retarded adults came to our sch n we had a reading session with them. den we sang songs n played games. dey haf the IQ n language ability of a P1-2 student. i really pity them, to b retarded n not function like a normal person can. there are so many things that dey can miss out, so many activities dey cant do. n yet dey dunno it. i can guess in some way dey r lucky too cos they got ppl to care for them at their centre n dey haf no worries. dey jus learn new things n haf fun everyday. oh well, i'm glad i made their day happy! i guess when i grow upm i'm gonna do some job dat leaves mi feeling accomplished. like mayb a vet, den everyday i can help animals or some other job dat serve or contributes the world instead of jus working in an office which doesnt really leave me feeling accomplished or recognized 4 my work, jus plain bored.

ehh i promised myself dat i'll not buy any more teenage mags cos they're a waste of money cos dey dun really haf too much contents. BUT i still couldnt resist cos in the AUG issue dey included black eyed peas giant poster!!!! wheeee but i'm gonna buy LIME in aug. tmr is the esplanade rehearsal. i've neva been on the esplanade stage b4 but i have sat quite a number of times in the audience seat. i've sat 2nd storey, 1st row, the expensive seats at the side...cos i owaes go there n listen to SSO concertos. =) my mum constantly brings mi 2 see such things cos she believes dat i should get good music exposure. lawls. aniwae tmr i can skip the lessons after lunch. actually can skip lessons after recess de but wad's the use? hang around oso nth to do cos cant go com lab or anything. only can stay in m3-01. tmr still nid bring gown, court shoes n makeup. O.o

i jus had my piano exam last wk!! i cant believe i screwed up the staccato scales esp when it's like A minor only n den i screwed up my legato scales D melodic minor! dat one was like so crap. i tried like 4 times b4 i rmbred n dat was the one dat i practice at home b4 the exam like siao cos i knew i'd forget n in the end i really did. den my aural sec A. screwed up by singing rubbish n den i screwed the end of my C2 pieces cos i played the fingering wrong!!! grahhh. been waning to blog about the choir concert but i had no time. welll i guess it was a gr8 success n our presidents sae dat even thou we screwed up diu diu dang a and cublak but everyone still liked it. lol. but i felt proud cos i finally did cublak actions correctly even thou mi n ninja both counted the number of "hom pim pah"s wrongly. i only got one flower n it's from lucy. yay lucy rox!!! XD sitong loves lucy. :))) aniwae cosi bello was quite a good production considering dat it was pretty last minute n all...n our practice was still not dat much! dat dae i hugged a lot of ppl mmm namely: jelly, cindy, su xiang, lee qi, ninja, lucy, mel den mayb still got some more. cant rmbr le. nex yr i'd b sec 3 n it's SYF le!! omg omg omg very scared cos everyone will still b expecting us to get gold wif honours like 2005 yr. sobs. i tink will prac till die. esp when i intend to go overseas oso. but i dunno go whr thou.

i needa go do the stupid hist assignment le. sighhhhhhhhh pay dat much sch fees for such crappy teachers. dat relief teacher everything oso ask us to go read ourselves lor...i want mrs kuan back leh!! T_T oh wellll...

jus now din blog enuff i'm taking advantage of the internet to shout out 2 more ppl e issues facing the world 2dae. i'm gonna talk about 2 issues:

1) why r some gals so stupid as to tink they'll find true love in sch? n y get heartbroken??
2) teens nowadays pursue too many branded stuff. commercialism r all aimed teens. the businessmen all use ppl 4 walking billboards!!

1st topic
i owaes buy teenage n den in EVERY SINGLE ISSUE dear kelly's column i'll spot tons of mails riting dat they're heartbroken. which is stupid. esp if u're in pri/sec sch. u noe, it's proven by science gal mature earlier than bois both physically n mentally. bois dun understand true love. when dey say all those sweet talk, dey dun really noe wad it mean. r u guys gonna get married someday? u're BOUND 2 break up someday. there's no way 4 it to last 4eva. so many u get upset bout it a little den after FORGET IT!!!!! dun ever ever say u're heartbroken again! open ur eyes! wake up! all this is jus 4 fun!! nuthin's serious! unless u expect urself 2 get pregnant n end ur education early n marry the guy OR u guys will definitely break up!!! okie dat's all. there's nuthin much 2 talk about on this issue aniwae jus to let those stupid gals out there get real.

2nd topic
the thing is, when u walk down orchard road, all e teenagers take out their super ex nokia hp n yakkin...den dressed in their levi's n den a extremely ridiculously ex tops. den gals all dress like fake Barbies walking about. dey look so surreal. 1st of all, it's their parents money they're wasting. jus bcos those clothes n stuff got brands so wad? if u seriously tink u're gonna get popular jus bcos u haf all those branded stuff, u're seriously wrong. it's ur personality dat counts. so wad if u haf all those stuff but a bitchy bimbotic attitude? nobody's gonna like u. well so wad if everyone haf those stuff? doesnt mean u hafta get the exactly identical stame stupid thing to get ppl 2 like u rite?! having branded stuff doesnt make u cool. it jus assure ur pathetic self dat u're too scared to stand out. being a true person is wad really matters. not being fake like some other ppl. heh. dat's exactly wad y the commercials n business r aiming at teens. cos the teens dun make money, they spend them, dey dunno jus how hard parents worked 4 the money. dey dun understand how jus hard earned money jus get down the drain in the businessmen's pockets. u noe all those OP, billabong n A LOT of other brands jus scrawl their brand name rite across their chest?! welll...they r seriously clever cos dey haf jus branded u as a walking advert when u wear ur clothes n happily walk about n show them 2 everyone dat sees u. dey can get free advertisements n models. being branded sux those businessmen r jus taking advantage of ur naiveness! i realllly reccomend everyone to read THE GOSPEL ACCORDING TO LARRY(bk1) and VOTE FOR LARRY(bk2) by Janet Tashijan. those books seriously tell u how to tink in a different way. wellll i tink ppl should get paid 4 wearing brand name across their chests. either dat of STOP wearing stupid branded tees. get unlogo-less tees. X(

if u check the statistics, a whole load of economic money r coming from teens. w/o teens the ecnomy will DIE. the business will lose tons of money k. well jus tink about it. would u like 2 b branded ppl walking around advertising 4 free? or would u rather reveal wad u r inside n show it off? =)

yay!! tomb raiders ppl rox!!!! luv u guys!!!! :D we actually earned so much money n had so much fun!! even thou e cloth is saggy but we still managed to build the actual maze! even thou i really hate some of e ppl dat came in....like those irritating ppl who scold "fuck" or other swear words every single freakin minute 4 no reason n those ppl who anyhow poke us "ghosts" who e hell do they tink dey r?! BUT 4get them we still rock! wheeeeee had so much fun! plus everybody's make up is so scary!! i mean we actually built a decent haunted hse lor!! but i was tinking mayb part of e reason so many ppl willing to queue to go in was dat we haf aircon. dey go in can haf aircon cos outside so damn hot! lols. some interesting moments:

-mi n yannie was like telling 2 guys whr e exit of e maze was. den we ask them to walk the way we point. den dey so stupid go n walk stright into a door n hit their heads!!! it was SO damn funny i laughed 4 2 minutes!! XD
-some ppl actually screamed their heads off inside at e mere sight of us
-being scared myself in the maze but it was still super fun ripping their hearts out once they step into e maze. dey dun last 2 minutes out there wif us around! =)

dat's all. after clearing up everything, the maze looks so bare! couldnt haf done it w/o everyone. sighhhh...sobs. i miss e maze so much.

these daes keep wanting to blog n keep forgetting. spent $20 n still couldnt haf a decent lunch. everything was so ex. did one heena design dat faded out after 15mins(cheat my $!!!) 4 3 bucks. den 4bucks on 2 drinks. 3 on hotdog, 3 on ice cream waffle. 2 bucks donated away. so many of my frenz dunno whr 2 spend the money dey jus donated their coupons to our own collection in the end!! i mean, there's actually nuthin' much 2 buy! seriously! ppoooor ppl, a lot of them was so hungry there...buy all the snacks oso not full cos dey cant get a decent meal. lols.

weeellll this sch wk not hectic at all i feel so thankful of dat. but alredy getting 3 on-going project. dat sux. 1 geog, 1 LA, 1 science. stilll haf chinese. sob sob. plus i was sick 4 2 daes wif fever...din even go 2 sch lor. all bcos i came back genting den sick le. i go last wk of hols. but i still had tons of fun! din regret a tiny bit going there. i sat on the space shot ride twice---u seat up on a talll thingy about a 15 storey hdb flat den come down at e speed of a free falling object. i felt like my heart really gonna come out at e descent. den sat on 2 360 degree roller coaster ride...a few others not dat scary de... :))) so freaking fun =) phewwwwww...now my fren over come watch world cup =.= actually i oso not dat into world cup de. ytd read this chinese article on zao bao NOW. den it was about world cup how ppl actually can get together despite whr they come from n discuss/watch world cup so animatedly n not discuss about pollution, starvation, conservation so happily. how ppl can dun care about the different class---a businessmen n a coffee shop uncle can discuss bout world cup so cheerfully n put aside all the castes dat society had so carefully devided us into. sighh it's pretty sad really dat ppl care more about soccer matches which is jus win n lose n not care about their own freakin planet dat dey supposedly call their "home". all we ppl doing r jus inventing more n more things/technology for the benefit of mankind only. n some of these things all end up destroying the earth. which, ironically is our own home. destroying ur own home. ppl r so stupid.

welll if no one's gonna care, it's too bad. the end the ones who will b suffering will b us. by then, no wonder how u regret it'll b useless. now so many ppl r complaining dat dey haf "baby blues". lesser n lesser babies gettin born in every country. well i tink dat e lesser e better! more n more equals over population of humans n lesser of animals. humans cut down so many trees 4 paper n factories 4 our own selfish needs n ppl still waste paper so easily. poooooorr animals! the earth is THEIR home as well as ours. jus bcos we haf a more advanced brain than them doesnt mean i can take away their right to live on this world as much as we do! more ppl needa realise this! or else in the end, it's jus humans alone living on this polluted earth dat will eventually vanish due to HUMANS.