Une fille comme moi

Tuesday, November 25, 2008, 12:06 AM

I'm so bored at home now I can't wait for my job to start at minitoons. And I hope that the HR manager will hurry up and call me to confirm my job, because if she decides to call and tell me that I didn't get it, I'll scream and yell at her like a madwoman, since I spent more than 2.5hrs travelling to Eunos Ubi Techpark and back.

I just posted up my ads around my neighbourhood advertising my tuition service and I think I may be able to get around 2-3 jobs as an events model after all :D Yay! You know, those jobs pay around $50/hour $_$

Ma maison est en fait pas vraiment ma maison plus, parce que tout le monde font leur choses séparément, à cause que mes parents ont des "probleme" et je suis négligé à la maison chaque jour. Je passe mon déjeuner, manger des morceaux de pain, acheter mon dîner seule, regarder la télévision, lire des livres pour 4 heures chaque fois, juste pour tuer le temps. J'espère ma mère parler à mon père encore. Il a été depuis si longtemps qu'elle avait ri. J'essaie de me dis que ce n'est pas de ma responsabilité d'être un médiateur, et je sais au fond de mon coeur que les choses vont toujours "tomber en morceaux". Je suis malade d'être toujours d'une coincé dans le milieu, comme la colle utilisée.

J'essaie de me divertir et remplir ma vie avec beaucoup de choses à me divertir, cependant. J'essaie de faire du shopping, faire les maths et avoir une migraine, aller à la bibliothèque, allez à la danse hip-hop avec des amis, regarder 射雕英雄传, prier pour la prompte arrivée de mon yeye et laolao et essayer de me convaincre que je suis ne vivant pas un vain mensonge. Peut-être que ce n'est pas si mauvais, mes parents m'aiment toujours, juste que ... ils ne s'aiment plus.

Oh and today I went to my first treatment at Mary Chia. My mum has somehow managed to fork out $8000+ dollars to remove my hairs (: I swear I'm going to pay her back every single cent she has ever spent on me when I begin to enter the workforce. Hopefully, by the end of 6 months, I'll be permanently fuzz free. Life has little to celebrate, but there's always something there when you look hard enough.

Hip, no hop.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008, 11:25 PM

Today I went to O school for An An's Hip Hop I open session and I left feeling embarassed and defeated. It's not that the dance moves are hard, I just have trouble looking normal with the actions and choreographed dance moves! Somehow I seem to lack a swingy relaxed movement that everyone else in the room possesses D:

Anyway, the song of today's choreo is already on my blog's playlist. Go here if you want to see the dance routine that I "learnt" today: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y3wLbbywvW0

Thank god I couldn't be seen in the video, because I'll might as well crawl up into a hole and die or something. I ALREADY look weird dancing the first four beats of the choreo and basically I just look like a dumb ass who is forever forgetting the next dance move and therefore always lagging behind one beat! Ok maybe it's not that bad, but I seriously think I sucked today, compared to all those people standing in the front rows before me.

I NEED to work hard on my hip hoppish style or whatever you call it, or else I can just forget entirely about getting into MAD :/ I feel lousy now...and I still need to wake up early because I have another interview at EUNOS for the Minitoons outlet at IMM. Gosh. So much for learning hip hop and job hunting.

PS: I'm not going to say the mystery person's name with whom I went to hiphop today. I'm tired of hearing your teases, girlfriends.

Holidays are here

Monday, November 17, 2008, 11:16 AM

I feel guilty for not blogging after I came back from Vietnam for so long, but I'm lazy and I still haven't uploaded my photos onto photobucket yet, so I guess you still have to wait :/

However, my first day of work of Ajisen ended with lots of drama and tears. Not literally, tears, but still there were a lot of drama from my mum, because I got scalded on my left hand by hot water by another waitress there. The first day of work at Ajisen, I realized that none of the people who work there are good tempered and they tend to scold each other loudly, which I was at first uncomfortable with...it wasn't really a very good working environment anyway and the supervisor like to bark at everyone in her sight when she's pissed (which happens every one hour). I was assigned to making drinks such as hot green tea, cool green tea, ice lemon tea etc according to the orders given to me by the waiters. The kitchen for drinksmaking is really really squeezy and I still had to share it with the people making desserts. I think it's obvious that the environment isn't really very good and to quote my mum, "it isn't worth 6 bucks per hours working there with the risk of always getting burnt". So I quit, the first day of work there and my mum forbade me from working F&B again.

I'm sending my resume to the NewBalance store at IMM and I have an interview from CottonOn tomorrow. And meanwhile, I shall post up notices advertising my tuition service and also get new events assignments.

Schedule for this week:

Monday: change my phone

Tuesday: go for CottonOn interview

Wednesday: go for hiphop

Thursday: go to pri sch gathering

Fri: attack those wretched math papers while searching for more work

Before I Fly

Friday, November 07, 2008, 11:19 AM

I'm at Changi Airport now (:
It's approximately 1h20m before I fly to Ho Chin Minh City. I'm so hyped up now.

I've been wanting to blog at the airport, because the feeling before you leave your "home" country is really hard to express. It's the feeling of anticipation, excitement, slight bit of sadness and also happiness. The flight will only take less than 3 hours, I'm with all my 402 friends and other ppl now (:
I feel blessed, and I'm rambling.

Thank you for everything that "God" has given me in my life. Did I mention that I pray to my own imaginary God since I was 10 years old? I may not know what he looks like, but I'm sure his is up there, watching me, because everytime I pray to him, it works. Even though he may not always fulfil my prayers, but I trust that he is there for me. It may seem absurd for you, but I have prayed to him before when I was 10 to make my fever go away (when I was in Toronto) and my fever did go away the following day. So I believe that there's someone up there looking out for me and it gives me strength and reassurance when I feel insecure.

So thank you everyone, my friends, my family and my school (sorry that I'm being so emotional right now), I'll see you 7 days time (:

So, this is happiness

Wednesday, November 05, 2008, 10:54 PM

Today is considered the happiest day of my life because of 3 main reasons:

i. I can now finally slack without feeling guilty because my HCL O levels is finally over! (even though the presence of 4 math papers still continues to threaten me) I hope I'll be able to get an A2 so as not to let down my mum and zuo laoshi and of course, myself. I should sometimes be ashamed that even though I'm from China, I can't even scrape an A for my EOY exam ): But I've already been conditioned to become a Singaporean already since I'm here since kindergarden...

ii. Barack Obama became the historical first black president in American history, with his wife Michelle being the first black First Lady. Even though I do not live in USA and am not an American citizen, I can't help being elated about this piece of news. Firstly, this represents that most Americans have finally accepted 'black' African Americans as their equals and have hence chosen a black president to represent their country. Secondly, I sincerely respect Barack Obama because even though he did not have previous experience regarding politics but he still stood up and fought for his dream and for his America despite his differences and difficulties. In conclusion, it's 皆大欢喜。

iii. The MAIN reason for my happiness, however, is the time spent with my closest choir friends today. Even though our beach plan is completely ruined by the heavy rain, but that did not dampen our happiness :D We first proceeded to Bugis to take neoprints (i can now have complete reason to act cute with my choppy bangs hahahaha). We spent nearly one hour plus just decorating the four neoprint pictures! :O but the results turned out superb and we had so much fun, even Huimin, haha.

After which, we went to Marina Square and walked around its huge complex until we found the bowling alley. We bought two games and Me and Leny grouped together, with Adeline and Huimin competing against us in the other group, while Xiaoyang and Jelly cheered us on xD In the end, me and leny won the game with a 10+ points lead, thanks to my beginner's luck, which managed to help me knock down 9 pins at my first go :D But after that, my luck detoriated and besides knocking down another 7 pins, the rest of my balls went into the gutter D:

Thankfully Huimin's and Adeline's balls ended up with the same fate so that's why me and leny still won them *muahahhaha*

After which, me and leny bought earrings at only 3 pairs for $5 :D They had an entire full of earrings to select from, and me being me, nearly wanted to buy 5 pairs, but ended up only getting 2 pairs so that I can share with leny's pair to make 3 pairs.

And then, we dined at a wonderful Hong Kong style restaurant that was recommended by Leny. We only ordered three meal dishes, each pair to one dish. I shared my Seafood Muifan with Adeline, while Huimin and Jelly ordered Fish Muifan and Leny and Xiaoyang ordered Cheese Baked Spaghetti with Chicken Chop. I would definitely go back to dine there again some time as the majority of the dishes only cost up to $9.90 max, which is relatively cheap given the relaxing dining environment and quick and fast service. The quantity of the food was good enough for two girls to share and it was really delicious. The Seafood Muifan contained 3 fresh prawns, spinach, fish and octopus bits and of course, rice, in delicious gravy covered with pork floss. YUM.

[Leny, you owe me peektures!]

On a serious note, I seriously do not know what I would do without my wonderful friends. At this stage of my life, I would definitely choose friends over family. Friends can become your family but you can never get some family to become your friends. Friends are the people you choose and friendships are more meaningful because they are the relationships that you helped build. I always feel extreme happiness spending time with my good friends, because they accept me for who I am, and I know that we can laugh at each other's silliness and do crazy, fun and stupid things together. They let me have confidence in myself and feel loved and cared for because I know they will always be there supporting me through thick and thin no matter what happens.

THANK YOU, MY CLOSE FRIENDS [adeline, jean, melly, jelly, xiaoyang, leny, michmich and huimin] , I LOVE YOU.

Tomorrow, I'm going to stuff my life essentials needed for 7 days into one tiny luggage because I'll be flying to Ho Chin Minh City on 7NOV, coming back on 14NOV, and starting work on 15NOV. Wish me luck and I'll bring back goodies for you guys. *muacks* :D

Labels: a smile a day

娃娃头

Tuesday, November 04, 2008, 1:14 PM

I've changed my hairstyle again! Those who went for the chinese supp lesson on Monday probably saw it. Haha, sorry if I look weird with the choppy bangs, I hope they will grow out soon.

After my chinese o levels, I'll be flying for Ho Chin Minh City on friday. I hope nothing will happen to us because I heard that central and northern areas of Vietnam is currently experiencing floods. Ha said that HCM city will not be affected. Hopefully, because I'm really looking forward to my relaxing trip to HCM, as well as buy back loads of cheap goods to sell on Quaint Tea Party. And pray that they will sell this time round, because the necklaces aren't selling D:

I can't wait for tomorrow, because after my O's I can finally break free from all exams until next year (since I never sign up for french DELF exam hee) and I can go and have fun at east coast tmr with all my friends! I'll definitely post up pics of our outing tmr~

-back to mugging for now-

I've graduated!

Saturday, November 01, 2008, 9:42 PM

I can't believe I've graduated from Nanyang Girls' High School(on Halloween)! It didn't really seem long and I still vividly remember when I first stepped into the school. It was raining and all the sec 1s were assembled in the hall and I nearly got lost trying to find the hall, because the school compound is giant compared to my puny sized pri school.

And I'm really going to miss nanyang and all the nice people inside! It's always the people that matters the most. And I'd also like to take this chance to say a big THANK YOU to every single person in 402 because they have helped me with my schoolwork, listened to my crap, got bullied by me and also encouraged me when I was down. Special mention to(in random order):

michmich, who is there everytime to celebrate my bday for me and put up with my crap. bearbear who not only taught me chem and math, but also got nienie by me.

adeline for eating lunch with me and always encouraging me on! (your advice is REALLY good)

jean for being there for me throughout my 4 years in NY.

Jojo for going with me to all the random events that I wanna go

melly for shopping with me! :D

shiing for being high and crazy with me!

xiaoyang, ha, felisa,ann and huimin, for always eating lunch with me too!

clara for always being SO nice I feel bad about it.

ao ao for being so cute and putting up with me always patting your head (sorry, can't help it cos you're too cute ma)

And also my even more cuter JELLY in 401, for letting me nienie your baby fats :D

And those who are not mentioned above, please don't feel sad because each and every one in 402 ROCKS, seriously.

I'm really going to miss 402 a lot a lot a lot. Because we not only support each other in class and teach each other homework, we also care for everyone we meet, including our teachers and also take all schoolwork seriously and also have fun at the same time. That's the reason we won model class for 2 successive years and we can always keep on getting all the "most punctal class" awards. I don't think I'd ever get into another class that can be better than 402.

The graduation ceremony yesterday was boring but meaningful. Boring because of the long time spent in the stuffy hall watching an endless line of people walking up on stage. Meaningful because it's the last time we sang the school song as a cohort.

Our beautiful school campus. It's forever so pretty looking on the outside, no matter how you take the picture. (Even though on the inside it's all cement floors and all, but it's made pretty by the people that reside in it)

The Quadrangle where we hold our assembly every morning

The wonderful friends that I've mentioned above.

L-R: me, addie, xiaoyang, ha, felisa and ann.

Hahahaha so spastic. Jean has this amazing ability to be spastic in every photo she's in xD
And melly looks cute here ^_^

Singing the graduation song during the Grad Ceremony. As usual, my head is sticking out.

Me getting an empty scroll (that's supposed to contain the grad certificate) from Ms Sebastian. Below, the chopped off heads of my classmates. Sorry D:

The pressies I got for the day. Thank you for Jo, Cherie, Jiaqi, Clara and Mich for writing notes to me! And I totally love the nanyang graduation bear given to the sec4 cohort by our juniors. Even though it's kind of cliche to give graduation bears, but still, it's SPECIAL.

I still can't believe that I'm leaving nanyang and stepping into Hwa Chong JC section next year. It's always nice to have a change, plus there's the presence of guys to look forward to, but I'll really miss everyone... *sniff* hahahah.