Une fille comme moi

Comme ca, c'est bien

Wednesday, March 25, 2009, 11:29 PM

These days seem to be getting better (: Ever since I sent off my grandparents, me and my mum are having lesser fights and I'm so glad that I finally have my room back to myself again, now I feel like I can finally breathe. And it also feels good that when I get home, that won't be anyone making noises or walking past my room and trying to see what I'm doing. Ahhh, peace. I feel bad that I wasn't exactly very nice to my grandparents while they were here, but seriously, I really am not used to having them here. It annoys me sometimes :/ and when I get annoyed, I say insensitive things and then me and my mum will have a fight.

Last friday I went out to shop with Melly at Orchard again and we each bought a pair of C&K heels! Gosh I'm loving C&K now, their designs just keeps getting better! I bought a pair of beautiful cutout 3 inch wedges that don't bite my feet. Yes I know it's quite high but I don't care. There's no rule saying tallies can't wear heels :D In fact, we should all the more show off our long legs hahahaha. Then on sat, I went to the 90TH ANNIVERSARY GALA DINNER foc, courtesy of Qihao and his friends. I thought I wouldn't get through the night there at their table, but turned out I did and it was quite ok (:

Today's such a nice day because it's founder's day holiday! I went back school to mug with addie, had lunch with addie and qihao and then me and addie went out to orchard. Wanted to buy this nice cream lace tank from f21 that i saw with Melly on fri but THEY TOOK IT DOWN D: Wth so freaking fast. Then I went back to Zara to try on that pair of lovely $99 gray skinnies that I saw with Melly too and decided that I can use that $99 on other clothes. But it's really gorgeous D: I really wish I'm rich some times.

And me and Addie treated ourselves to Bakerzin deluxe cafe desserts! The cookies and cream cheescake was really rich and delicious but I find the macarons a bit too sweet. Especially the shell! First time that I'm eating macarons but I don't think Bakerzin's ones are good. Plus, they costed $1.50 EACH.

They do look gorgeous sitting here though...

Ladeedumdeela and that's the way it goes

Thursday, March 19, 2009, 11:54 AM

I haven't been blogging for so long, I think I should revive my blog now. There were a lot of things going through my mind lately and I wanted to vent them out...and I did, by talking late into the night to someone.

From last week since I saw Utt, I fell sick with a fever, skipped school on monday cos I wasn't feeling well, missed the math test I've been mugging so hard for, got to school on tuesday even though I still had one more day worth of MC, took chem and bio test, was one of the 5 people in my class that passed the chem test even though I only got a pathetic mark of 6/10, felt claustrophobic at home as though I couldn't breathe, was sick of the way my parents were handling things and felt like everything was going to crumble while I was coughing my insides out.

I hope I've made good use of my holidays. I think I ought to be proud of myself and my friends are all calling me a mugger now...How do I put it? I'm not smart, but I wanna go to Ivy League. With my brains, I better put in more effort than the average person in HC. But my parents seem to think likewise, esp my mum. Everytime that she opens her mouth, it's either to tell me to DON'T do something or DO something else to her liking. I hate the way that she thinks she's so superior and have the right to control me and meddle in my business just because she's my mum. WTH sometimes I really want her to just disappear and leave me alone to control my own time and just TRUST ME, trust that I know what I'm doing. Trust that I've put in effort and now need some time to slack. Sometimes I just wanna get the hell out of this house.

I'm just glad for the presence of my friends. If not for them, I would have no motivation for anything. I really truly want to hug every single one of them who made me feel better.

Maybe it's a dellusion on my own part...maybe you see me as just someone that you like to talk to and nothing more. What was it that made me say those things and boost my hopes up? Stupid girl.

I need to be loved

Sunday, March 08, 2009, 12:54 PM

I'm seriously deadbeat tired. I slept at 1.30am last night and 2.40am the previous night. I was chionging SAGE presentation the previous night only to get criticised by the disgusting judge at sage =.= And yesterday during SAGE, we stayed all the way till the end of the last presentation, which was around 2.45pm...whereas other teams all left. Sigh. We shouldn't have stayed. We should have just presented, had lunch and went home, that will save me an extra 4 hours and I could have mugged earlier and went to sleep earlier. Damn.

But the silver lining was that yesterday after we had lunch, we saw Utt (the MTV VJ) on the way back to the SMU School of Accountancy! And Utt was drop dead gorgeous in a bad boy kind of way. He was with his friend and they were getting ready to skateboard (his friend was also cute but of course no as stunning as Utt xD) and Melly got huachi cos she said Utt smiled at her. And she was still talking about it 30minutes after Utt smiled at her! Actually I didn't recognise Utt at first, I couldn't connect his face to his name, until Melly pointed it out to me. I think he smiled at me too! <3

He looked more like this yesterday with his fringe and casual clothes. But he's hot like this: http://hot-males-celebrity.blogspot.com/2008/02/vj-utt-from-mtv.html

I find people of mixed descent really gorgeous. Utt is Thai(chinese)-American and Shan Wee from 987 FM is also gorgeous and he's Irish-Singaporean.

School is just really hectic and tiring now, despite the fact that lessons are funnier with the guys' crap...but then I just have a lot of things to do. Like doing tutorials, reading up before lectures, and revising after lectures and other random stuff. I've became far more nocturnal now. Because I can't really concentrate with noise from 8-10pm, I've resorted to sleeping after dinner and waking up at 930pm to work till around 1am. It's easier to concentrate when the night is dead quiet. I just want my JC life to be more fulfiling, it doesn't matter if I work hard and nearly die of exhaustion for 2 years when I have achieved a lot. I'm signing up for YAP, Youth for Causes, running for Interact exco and also CT rep. I shall see whether I can get enough people for Youth for Causes first. I didn't get into APYLS, apparently it's pretty prestigious and I was told only 3-4 people that were not in the 08 APYLS Committee got in. And I bet most of those people who were in APYLS Com last year were councillors too. That's not exactly very fair :/ But then again, life's not fair.

Apollo is the sun of my life and 09S79 is the heart of my soul <3

Sunday, March 01, 2009, 1:58 PM

I am really busy everyday so I don't really have time to blog, but then, I must blog about Post Orientation Party (POP) when Apollo won the FACULTY DANCE AND THE FACULTY SHIELD! (Details here: http://community.livejournal.com/apollofaculty/) I was just really really really elated when I heard that we won because I know that now all the sweat and time and effort that I put in staying back after school to learn the dance wasn't wasted! And I'll also like to thank all the people (Amanda, Ben and Addie) for telling me that my dancing was zai xD And at first, I was scared that Ares will win again, especially when I saw the opening of their dance after ours but then I watched the video on youtube on Apollo's POP dance and I knew why we won.

Everyone in Apollo put in their effort to do the dance properly and maintained our rows right to the end of the dance. And the MOVE MOVE SHAKE SHAKE A-PO-LLO! was just sensational, it was like the entire Central Plaza was rocking. And our ending part where we threw our caps sky high - it was just great. I couldn't stop watching the video again and again. Hahahahaha. After we won, we had Sodache again all the way till 8pm+ and during Sodache, we were supposed to dance with someone from another faculty. Then me and addie and the rest of the girls were just standing there waiting for guys to come over, but then in the end all the Artemis guys that came over were shorter than me so I danced with michmich. Then halfway through the dance, Lijie came over and brought this super tall guy over to me and asked me to dance with him! LOL. Then I had to abandon mich (sorry mich! >.<) and dance with him (Aden). He's 184cm tall! Yay i was super happy. And then halfway through the dance Kelvin from my OG

came and they were like taking turns to dance with me ._. So embarrassing. And I felt really short because I was suddenly surrounded with 3 tall guys each from a faculty other than Apollo.

After they announced the results that Apollo won, we were all like screaming at each other and going crazy! Then we danced an encore and then then my class ordered mac's and stayed back. Some of us walked to the field and played the Apollo fac dance song again and started dancing again and again :D And then everyone was super duper high and crazy xD It was like the last day of Orientation all over again. Then, we ate mac's under a pool of light in front of the Tan Kah Kee statue and the guys were scaring us with hwachong ghost stories. HC has a lot a lot of ghost stories since their campus is so old already whereas nanyang campus kept moving throughout the past 90 years. It felt so good just to be there with my class, to be high and crazy and to forget all the shitty details of my life.

Then yesterday we had STJ at The Glass House Fish & Co. There were like 4 other HC classes having STJ as well there so Fish & Co was like super duper full. But the food was pretty great, I ordered a seafood platter (which took forever to come) and I also ate a lot of their yummy cakes together with my friends. Then everyone were camwhoring and I took a lot of photos of Qihao and the others acting gay, which got me into a laughing fit and also a lot of stupid forfeits that the guys had to do :D HAHAHAHA. I uploaded all the super funny photos onto facebook already. I think my class is like the only class that has such funny/gay/candid/spastic photos, made even more funnier by Ju's fb comments.

I really feel very bonded with everyone in my class now and I think that 09S79 rocks because we're hardworking, willing to help one another, supportive and knows how to have fun when we want to! Just like 402 (((:

I really love 09S79 from the top to the bottom of my heart.